July 9, 2010
Once again i can’t get you out of my mind. Though i saw you tonight i can’t seem to get enough of you. You are better than a personal drug addiction or any taste of liquor that has flowed across my tongue.
What is it that you do, not only to me but for me? How was i so lucky and blessed to experience this and for it to be with you? Wow…what to do?
This question i am asked moment by moment by the subconscience of my heart. Though i vowed to never fall in love so carelessly again, you have shown me who i really am. I told myself that this soul, heart, mind, and body would never wait on anyone again…but here i am…waiting.
I still want you.
I thought that i needed you, but i know now that this love is much more than that. This love is overflowing and the streets like the rain that fell from the sky this very day.
What we have is and will always be real. I shall never think of it in the past tense because it is constant and living with breath. I long to be that girl that always givs you that feeling. I want more then anything to be the forever one and of today and everyday on.
But if for some reason life decides to do as it usually does and takes this one that i love i will know that for me…it is and always will be real.
As i lay here i long for your touch, none other will do but you.
Believe me dear, i have tired and failed.
Some say this is unhealthy, dangerous, and going to hurt.
I say…yes, i know but what is a life that doesn’t long and fight? Hope and dream?
It is but a half lived life.
That life, i’ve had a piece of that pie.
It was bitter, old, stale, and unfullfilling
But you darlin…oh wow.
You are my muse.
Since you i am able to feel
Since you i am able to love
Since you i am truly able to be me.
Since you i am able to write
Through you i have experienced true and real love. This love wants only for the other half to be happy and complete. This love wants you to fly so very high. This love is madly in love with the Fucked up, crazy, passionate, beautiful, wonderful, imperfect person that you are. This love sees all of the screw up’s and mistakes that you have and continue to make and still love you though those. This love falls more in love with you though knowing and working through those things. This love will always have wide open arms welcoming you to this home in my heart. This is love and words do it no justice whatsoever, but i hope that through actions you are able to catch a glimps pf this beautiful love that i have for you.
it is more beautiful then any picture taken, and painting painted, or sunset seen. The reason being…?
This is real and true
and this love i have
for you will last
until the universe is untrue.
i love you.
