we all get in those state of minds where it feels like we are completely alone, like we are and have been walking throughout this life on our own and now it’s just now smacking us in the face. as if now all of a sudden we have every negative thought thrown into our minds, every empty hopeless feeling in the pit of our stomachs, and every tear falling from our eyes. but what we don’t realize 95 percent of the time when we’re in these places, is that it hasn’t always been this way. thing’s haven’t always been bad, we don’t always lose ourselves, we’re not always alone, and there is always an ear willing to listen and arms wide open and ready to embrace you as you are. that includes your pain and thousands upon thousands of wondering questions you have dropped into your head.
the truth is that there is always someone who wants to be there for you. 
someone who loves you unconditionally. someone who wants to listen to everything you want to let come spilling out of your mouth like a waterfall. the reality is though, that we think that those people are lying, fake, will leave at some point and time, to good to be true, or not the people we want to be there for us.
as humans we have a tendency to see thing’s the way we want to see them; whether good or bad. to me, this makes me sad because it doesn’t allow us to live our lives to the fullest or to be truly happy. it’s like being partly blind, you see an outline of something but you can never really look and see the details of it. you aren’t able to see the beauty and the happiness that this would bring you if you’d only take a chance and do thing’s differently this time. but your walls from the past are standing in the way and you have to make a choice. so what do you do? we are all faced with this question at some time in our lives; some more than others.
all I have to say from my experience is this: TAKE A CHANCE AND JUMP!
what do you have to lose honestly? I mean there are a few choices here: 1) you will get hurt, but wouldn’t you get hurt even if you didn’t take the chance? it would just be the same kind of hurt that you have felt from years before and you won’t learn anything new and that’s what life experiences are about, learning and growing. 2) you will be amazed at how different and how much things can and will change. in this you will learn and grow as a person by not only the new people you now are able to let into your life, but also by the strength you have gathered and the new paths that are now open to you. or 3) you will get hurt and thing’s won’t go the way you thought that they might, but bc and through these actions and reactions, you are a stronger, better, more open, and loving person. all in all it’s worth it..
you know how deeply you can love because of how deeply you have lost and felt pain. but only through your choices will you be able to love unconditionally and deeper than the depths of the sea.
Posted by Sean Delpha on December 15, 2010 at 10:50 pm
Shayla,
That was ethereal. The first paragraph is very good idea of what seems to be a state we are all feeling. I have noticed it in myself, and in others. We have so much inside of us, from not just the years we have been alive, but from the entire collective past. As humans we are asking bigger questions, whether consciously or not. We start to realize that these big questions that can only be answered on our own. We end up without answers only to realize, every single human on earth has no idea why we are here, and what we are meant for. That realization silences the mind, and leaves whats left to the mystery. As collective human race we come together in that same mystery. We start to see what where are doing to this one mysterious place we live. The change had already begun.
In those moments we dare to wonder again, a single spark ignites the child’s heart within us all. The leap is eminent, and some won’t be able to take it slow. Some will be forced into the leap, the ones that held on until the very last moment. Compassion gives people space to expand. It gives us a reminder that we all still don’t have the answers.
Thank you for sharing what you truly had to say.
-s
Posted by Shayla Hall on December 16, 2010 at 10:34 am
thank you for reading and letting me know what you thought. i know it was pretty unorganized and random thoughts, but i just write to express myself really not to sound nice. lol